Every girl has that one piece of clothing and guy in their life that they always keep, because it's safe. For me it was a black cardigan I bought for a party we were having at school for the Presidents inauguration. I had also just got full frontal bangs, which I completely hated. The stylist ruined it basically, and I didn't want to draw anymore attention to myself, I also wanted to look "sophisticated" hard for a 16 year old though.( I think I was 16 haha oh well I'm 19 now) So when I found this simple black, cotton, cardigan at Wetseal (a store I promised myself never to roll into again) I wasn't in love at first but I was sure it would grow on me and it did.So for the event I paired it with black pants and a white button shirt(BORING!) but that day wasn't the only time I wore that sweater, I told myself that since my high school had a strict dress code I could wear it, and it worked for three years it worked perfectly. I could wear it over shirts and for one of my performances I wore it as a dress. It was my go to clothing piece out of my closet. Flash forward to my senior year of high school, I just started dating a really sweet guy, were the feelings there at first from my part, no but I was pretty sure they would grow on me.Eventually they did and I was in love, I had the perfect guy and the perfect sweater. Everything was going great until the feelings changed for him, he wasn't in love as much as me. I figured those feeling would come for him but he grew distant and a lot of anger was between us. Same with the sweater, it was my favorite, my first key piece love, if that makes any sense? But slowly my love for the sweater went away, and I was scared because it was my safety blanket almost, he was my safety blanket also. I tried to make it work but the distance of us kept growing further apart. He met someone else and I didn't. It was weird because he was always my go to guy, you know that ex you have that you "use" even though you wish the two of you are still together. But one day I called him and it was different, he was committed to someone else. My sweater was treating me differently also, I didn't have that same feeling from it. Instead of keeping me warm it only kept me cold. So I realized recently that, the sweater and him were time to be given up, as much as I loved both, neither of them were needed in my life. So with that I figured the sweater could use a better owner, so I donated it. And as for the guy, he seems to be happy with the new girl, am I happy for him yet, no. But I think eventually I could possibly be. She's completely different from me, not a fashion type of girl, seems more "fun" not that I'm not but I seem to have serious moments and she is always smiling. Something I don't do much of, I just found it to be cheesy to smile for no reason and almost fake, like your trying to hide something. So the point is she's completely opposite of me and he loves everything about her which makes me wonder what was wrong with me? The sweater problem was basically because my style changed and I grew into a new style, a better fashion sense. So is it the same? What do you guys think, can you have "safety guy" just like you have a safety blanket key piece of clothing?
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